I don’t know why I liked the feeling of depression.
Remembering the weeks alone and my heart feeling compressed in –
Missing days of school because I slept in.
I was hiding, not really neglecting my studies…
It makes me wonder about love and fulfillment – the entire continuum.
I’ve felt both sides – heaven and hell.
Is it all a mindset I question.
Either way, I learned a lesson.
Not to stay too long down there.
It is much more peaceful up here.
I felt good sad, how is that so?
I loved the feeling, but it isn’t healthy – causes stress.
I want to feel happy and content. With time being well spent.
Even though I have wishes, being lost in a fantasy isn’t the best way to cope.
Life is good when lived with a little soul.
Because great spirits have to dance with young souls,
old souls and no-souls…
And If I get hurt along the way, it is okay when you are a gold soul.
A gold soul is a mighty soul, and a fine soul – diamond soul that takes years for someone to mine such a soul. Yes, a very hard to find soul…
So just know, as I write this to myself – you have a big heart and a mighty soul – dont give up or become too weak again. God is watching in.