To feel everything is the worst torture –

To feel things on the far left spectrum is a horror.

Everything can seem violent and hostile.

Is that directed at me or not so?

I can’t tell because of mania.

And moods go back and forth like Sania.

It seems easy to just take a pill.

But this is internal work, and I am determined to hush this violent revelation.

Through love, poems, friends, and meditation.

I will conqeuor like Aurelius.

And this sadness, I will get rid of this.

I will strive continuously.

Because the darkenss tries to get rid of me.

But none can stop God’s work and Gods plan.

Still I stand. Through him, I stand.