To feel everything is the worst torture –
To feel things on the far left spectrum is a horror.
Everything can seem violent and hostile.
Is that directed at me or not so?
I can’t tell because of mania.
And moods go back and forth like Sania.
It seems easy to just take a pill.
But this is internal work, and I am determined to hush this violent revelation.
Through love, poems, friends, and meditation.
I will conqeuor like Aurelius.
And this sadness, I will get rid of this.
I will strive continuously.
Because the darkenss tries to get rid of me.
But none can stop God’s work and Gods plan.
Still I stand. Through him, I stand.