“No more belief…”

And then I finally realized, what was keeping me ill,

It was a belief in a fictional tale still…

Yes, Jesus saved me, just not in this lifetime.

Because it was freezing and cold, in the lonely night time.

I was dark and alone, stuck in my own home.

My mind was frenzied;

It was my own spirit that let me…

I found some meaning in the suffering –

To go beyond my own;

Little by little, I found security, in being literally alone.