How do I fight the agony?
It’s like a cycle, that repeats and repeats.
I feel despair and sadness, that I do not know how to heal from.
I am literally living in a tormenting hell.
Re-runs of my mistakes with past relationships…
No one taught me how to love!
And still, I have no one to blame but myself and that is the worst feeling.
It’s all my fault.
Although, I think of suicide, there is no way I will follow through with them…
What is worst, living with agony, or dying from it for at least a few minutes – before I am totally dead?
A shotgun to the head or the chest, it takes 3 minutes…
How do I make it out?
Perhaps, I am not ready for the real world.
Death doesn’t seem so bad.
Maybe I am ungrateful.
I don’t know anything anymore.
I am at a loss of words, loss of hope and loss of motivation.
I am not strong enough.
I am literally suffering from loneliness and I hate myself because I made this bed.
Some days are better than others, but this day is the worst.
I just want to sleep and never wake up.
I just want to leave this curse of a life.
There is nothing good in it for me.
Nothing works out for me.
Nothing does, and I am tired.
How do I end this agony.