Dark depression…

I used to have a great relationship with God.

I would talk to him and he’d be there as a friend…

But these days, I just want my life to end.

No matter what I try…

I am so sick of this cycle of dark depression.

I am better than this.

I know what it is like to be happy and whole.

But these days, it’s as if the devil has my soul.

I pray but I don’t know how much God hears me.

I am caught in some heavy snares…

Being alone makes matters worst.

I have no friends.

I really want my life to end.

The thing is, I don’t know an easy way out.

How pathetic I am.

My thoughts are completely negative.

This isn’t even me.

Too much darkness in my mind.

And I just want to end it.