Existence seems infinite in its present.
Time, that illusion, is melted, as if magically away.
And life seems as if it is simply this, but my faith persists, I only wish to express this, poetic and unimaginable experience.
Perhaps, it’s the feeling of aliveness.
As I feel it alone.
If I could aesthetically assign this moment a color, it would be, ‘serene blue.’
If I could describe it as an emotion – it would be ‘positive gloom.’
And if I could coin it a name, a phrase of one of a kind – it would be ‘existential love.’
I hope that I experience loving someone again, because it would be the Big Bang.
And if I do love a woman once more, she will have my entire mind, body and soul.
She will be the first to experience, to share this existential love with me.
That lucky woman –
I wish to meet you some day.
You will experience love untold, and unmatched.
I say that confidently, and wholeheartedly.
You will see, my dear lover…