I can’t pretend that just a few months ago I wanted to leave this Earth.
I refuse to repress this.
I want to write about it because I am so familiar with it.
I soaked in darkness and wished to drown into the morning until found.
I wanted to.
I was trapped in my mind.
I gave up hope on myself.
I had none.
I felt shut out and forgotten.
I could not speak.
My soul searched and was stripped bare to just a feeling of needing love.
None to be found.
I could not find.
I was holding onto my mind with dear might.
It was so dark.
It was so black.
The energy was darkness.
I needed a specific and special love.
I revisit this, to stay grounded.
All of that darkness…
I was foolish.
Searching and lost.
Searching in all of the wrong places…
