Love ~

I am inspired by attraction, a romance and love. The varying levels and degrees… But the special kind and form to me, is the romance and passionate. I want the distinct kind of love… Not love for humanity, but the one that cures my insanity. I desire, wish, and want, The love that I feel […]

Alone, Not alone ~

Alone, Not alone ~

I am by myself, writing and training on this mountaintop. I am fighting with my soul, to not feel so alone. Thus, I read the Gita… I am brought to this book by my master. The unity, the connectivity. All of these things are true, and important. I look at everyone as connected and coming […]

In deep

I am in deep, and at times I question what I got myself into. At times blissful, this road is extremely stressful. At times painful, I feel extreme joy. At times frustrated, I feel angry and want to destroy. I try and find calmness, in the storm I’m immersed in. So with patience, the lord […]

“Sisyphean…”

“Sisyphean…”

I mastered myself, and I am still mastering myself. I craft myself, because life is primarily about art… I am like a sculptor, sculpting my own sculpture. I realize and I recognize, that nothing in life is perfect – so then, I ask myself, how can I at least, become my best self? I reach […]

Meditations [9]

Meditations [9]

I realize, and I recognize that my Heavenly father, is giving me my opportunity to write a page in history. I feel grateful. I am humbled. I am honored… But, more importantly I am focused. I am thankful for men like Jay Kule. KU. Randy Litts. Kevin Rodriguez. Dominic. Dan Havoc. Stoney. Thus far… And, […]

Vulnerability

Vulnerability

I find strength in baring my soul. I find freedom in expressing what dares to be told. I feel great and bold… I find value, in sharing my feelings. I feel freedom, in writing and expression. It is therapeutic and healing… It is brave and revealing. The human condition, we all suffer and it is […]

I Earned My Wings.

I Earned My Wings.

I feel free, and I am away from the dark clouds that hovered over me relentlessly. I feel free in the sense that I can relax and not feel too empty. I still feel obligated, to grow and expand somehow, someway. But growth is inevitable. God knew what he was doing when he made my […]

Actual Hero

I was reminded to stay away from the surface level thinkers. I was told that it would be dangerous. I am a little naive, I thought everyone would appreciate the universe and all its spaciousness. Consciousness, is a kind of strange thing. The collective consciousness, feels as if it is all in my brain… I […]

Deepness

Deepness

Can we return back to fall, or can it come very soon? This heat is deadly — it’s suffocating and drenching… I’m sweating and stumbling; I am searching and wondering. It is like a desert; and I’m searching on concrete floors for roses like me; Surviving death, and darkness, just isn’t that easy. I am […]

Rise with you ~

Rise with you ~

I want to rise with you… When I’ve fallen, can I reach a high with you? This world is truly amazing, but still so horrifying… When I’m dying, can I call on your divinity? I know, I understand, I am deep and enlightened – But please do not be frightened, us human beings are always […]