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I can’t pretend that just a few months ago I wanted to leave this Earth. I refuse to repress this. I want to write about it because I am so familiar with it. I soaked in darkness and wished to drown into the morning until found. I wanted to. I was trapped in my mind. […]

Dear Emily

Sunsets seem cliche, even ordinary. But I want to kiss you at the start of the sunset. I want to. I want you to stay with me for a weekend. No, a day will suffice. Even an hour or minutes fleeting… Because I need your love to spark my imagination. I don’t want to die, […]

Dawn

At dawn, I yawn, then you come to my mind… First thought is of you, brings me to the emotion of contentment. I rise from bed, and to God I pledge. I thank him for blessings, and lastly, for you. My day seems lighter already – And opposite from the past, which felt awfully deadly! […]

Shadow

Shadows follow me. I walked a long distance and my feet are calloused. My metatarsals are deformed and shaped differently. My perception sees beyond the norm. And my heart feels the unknown storm, that is ahead. I’ve walked in rain, sunlight, snowy days, and the gloomiest days you’ve yet to know. Shadows follow me. I […]

Rare case.

Rare case.

I want to sleep. I want to quit. I cannot do this. I am not good enough. I am tired. I’m in too deep. My mind is running, fast. No longer logical. No longer here. No longer grounded. No longer stable. No longer… I am sad. I am mad. I am frustrated. My feelings are […]

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I don’t want people to suffer. I want to hear the words that they mutter. No one heard mine when I wanted to die. So I want to be there when they cry. I don’t want people to feel too much pain that they cannot handle. Especially when it is unnecessary, we have each other […]

Meditations 2

Meditations 2

I believe that when you are a spiritual being, becoming egotistical can cause immense conflict. We are all human beings. Each and everyone of us, has an inner disposition to believe in something higher than ourselves. Thus, we are all spiritual human beings… My purposes for writing are these: to express my emotions, and inner […]

Opinionated

Opinionated

I value my heart more than my logic. Logic and intellect is easily controlled and swayed. But, the heart has a special kind of way! It leads a better life, than the intellect would. But combined is an indomitable force. Life and work does not seem so forced… And the balance is ever so beautiful. […]

Empathy overflow

Empathy overflow

I feel everything. I am illuminated and see everything… My heart feels vibrations and it is actually too good, too beautiful, and slightly overwhelming. But I get can get used to this. I savor each breath. Each thought. Each wave of vibration and boost of love. I can feel heaven in the depths of each […]

Love cures lonliness

Love cures lonliness

I cannot stay alone for too long. I will end up fancying the idea, of killing myself. I will end up running in a loop of wanting to live and die. Overthinking the matter. I feel like a true outlier. I am a misfit, going through the motions of feeling joyful again, about spending my […]